When my kids were still really young, and their father wasn’t paying child support, I had to call churches to ask them to help me pay my bills. I didn’t attend church, or have a close one-on-one relationship with God at that point. As a matter of fact, I didn’t even know that was a possibility then. But what I did know was that some churches helped people that were struggling financially. If they felt so inclined. I didn’t know why they did it. I just knew they did it.
It’s embarrassing to call places and ask for help. At least it was for me. I felt like I was being such a nuisance to whomever I called. I was embarrassed that I wasn’t able to provide everything I should be able to provide for my children. I didn’t want anyone to think that I thought providing for my kids was their responsibility, rather than mine. I knew that there had to be so many other people in the world who were struggling with a much more dire situation than we were. So, I felt guilty asking for anything that I thought someone else probably needed more than I did. But I was pretty desperate.
Finally after many phone calls, a man from the local Catholic church came to my apartment to go over all of my bills with me, to see how they could help. As he was sorting through my bills, I kept apologizing to him for having to ask for help. I told him that I was certain there were others who were living in a much worse situation than we were. It’s funny to me now, but I kept apologizing to him for having to ask for financial help even though we could afford a television set and microwave. As if being able to afford a television and microwave indicated you were rich! But even then, when I could barely afford food, I recognized what a luxury it was to have those items. Some people don’t even have a home. I think no matter what our situation is, we must always look for our blessings. Because, they are there.
When I think of the situation now, I realize just how silly I must have sounded for apologizing that I had enough money to afford a microwave and television, but couldn’t afford my bills. I think it had more to do with feeling selfish for asking for money that I knew someone else probably needed more than me. But I truly needed someone to help us! I didn’t know at the time that churches help people in that way because they want to show people, especially unchurched people, God’s love. I can tell you that I’ve never forgotten the way they showed me God’s love. It truly made a positive impact on my life. How have you shown God’s love to others? Or, how have you received God’s love from someone else? I’d love to know!